What I’m ON

So, every day I take 30 mgs of paroxetine. I take a beta blocker for anxiety and BP. I take aspirin because I’m paranoid about heart attack and stroke (my mother had a series of strokes at 55 and an uncle died at 42 from heart attack) and I am starting to take MSM which is just a supplement but I am told it works wonders on connective tissue.

I have been on the Paroxetine for about ten years. Up and down on the doses but always on it. I suspect that I always will be. I don’t fear coming off it but I have such appalling depression and anxiety/panic when I’m on the lower doses that I just don’t see the point of trying any more.  I can even feel pretty crappy at this dose, so I don’t know, maybe I’m getting too tolerant?

I don’t think that I need the BP meds anymore, my BP is really down and I’m exercising like a bugger, but I can’t seem to get my head round having the conversation with my doctor. I need to shape myself. I don’t know what seals my mouth when I get in there.

Today I feel really good.  The sun is out and I’m freckly and warm and happy. I hope it lasts.

~ by pippa71 on June 9, 2007.

4 Responses to “What I’m ON”

  1. Many antidepressants are famous for the “poop out” factor-they were working great and suddenly don’t work as well. It might be possible that switching to another could get around this and get you feeling like yourself again.

    I think it’s fabulous about your exercising, and your BP! :D

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  3. I take paroxetine daily as well. It’s hideously addictive, according to my doctor the ‘comedown’ is worse than that from heroin. :/ It serves its purpose however, and I’m comfortable with being on it for life if need be. :)

  4. And oi! Why am I under “feminist” and not “radfem”? ;)

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